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no children were killed in this home this day
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Dec 6, 2008 7:46 pm
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daltons mom came and rescued him. she told me she would give me one of her prozacs. i told her i could just smoke "some" and i wouldn't give a care. let alone i don't even smoke reg cigs anymore. and my luck, if i smoked something last week, i would get the pee test tomorrow and lose my license. maybe i should take one of her prozacs????????
lorna, is that xanax bar on it's way yet???
the baby is not feeling well, bradyn is not really all well, and i have been puny too. i am sure that is why they are on my nerves more today than other times. they are being their normal selves. but then, they have no where to burn all that energy.
my nerves are about shot really, but sarah came, dalton is going home, so one half of the fighting crew is leaving. tomorrow should be better.
ugh
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definitely different today
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Dec 6, 2008 2:01 pm
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you know there is a moment when you are either gonna kill them or yourself?? it was almost reached today.
being in illinois, i cannot just push their little bottoms outside. it was like 32 degrees this morning. so what do bored little children do? today the instigator was bradyn, when it is usually dalton. bradyn is getting to be a real handful. and it might not be so bad if he were not a whiner and when he cries, he is a screamer. omg
bradyn would hit dalton. then dalton would hit bradyn back. NANAAAAAAAAA!! then the hits again. even kicking was involved. and of course, dalton is bigger, so bradyn would "cry". lol
has been a nearly all day thing. it is three now. i have them until tomorrow evening.
bradyn was put down for a nap. he is sick anyways, so guess who is getting sick also??
ok, baby duty. hugggggsssss
tommie
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unbelievable
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Dec 5, 2008 8:21 pm
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really. it is. there are four kids at my house, and three of them are asleep before 10 pm, and i didn't have to tell a one of them to do it even!! the one not asleep, it would do no good to tell him to go asleep, because he would just coo and goo at me as he is only 6 months old. lol.
somehow i ended up with the 4 grandkids for the night/weekend. i worked 12 hours today, so it was a little late before they got here. willow (5) dressed for bed almost as soon as she walked in the door. dalton (8y ) was next and bradyn (5) was last. they had been watching a movie. dalton was first to lay his head down. he left the other two in their room and laid on the sofa in my living room. then bradyn got jealous and whined about where he was going to sleep at until i got up from the floor after dressing the baby for bed, then he took over the spot i was sitting in. willow turned off the television and laid down by her self in their room. all happened within half an hour, dalton changed back into their room so he could have the fan blow on him, and now all are out cold.
all those times i have argued with them to get ready for bed. threatened them life and limb to go to sleep. i never said one word tonight and they are all in dream land.
soooooooooooooo unbelievable.
now, if only carter would drift off into sleep world,
huggggggsssssss
tommie
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today is the 23rd
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Nov 23, 2008 7:44 am
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yup. it is. my grandson asked me several times "is today the 23rd nana?" and each time i was able to honestly answer, yes dalton, today is the 23rd. why he had to ask three times, i do not know. and if the 23rd is a special day for him, i don't know that either.
have a nice 23rd all.
hugggggsssssssss
tommie
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feeling better??? i think, lmao
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Nov 20, 2008 8:30 pm
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i think it is beginning to pass. mentally, i have felt better this evening, even though yesterdays episode keeps eating at me. not because i did wrong, i didn't, but because i wonder what it is that is eating at this young girl?
not my problem i guess. it will pass from my mind soon. i do not know if anything further will come of the episode. the supervisor has an odd way of not doing something for days, or weeks, then all of a sudden she calls you into the office. i am not going to let that worry me. i have enough stress in my life.
i made a HUGE pot of vegetable soup. it started out small. does it not usually? i bought a pot while i was in miami, big enough to feed the neigborhood. it was full to the rim. so i will take the slow cooker to work tomorrow, and the soup i am not giving to my daughter or putting in the freezer. it is still a lot to take, lol.
i put it in the van instead of the refridgerator, lmao. does that tell you how cold it is out? it is supposed to down to 17 tonight, so it may even freeze. i hope my apple does not freeze. or the can of soda i put in there for my lunch.
where are these little pi$$ ants coming from? they are on my dining room table. it has sewing machines and paper work on it. some crafty items. i cannot find a trail that they are going up. they just are there. i take a wet rag and wipe them away, and they show up again. i even sprayed stuff on the underside, and they still are there. grrr.
i went to the doctor the other day and he finally gave me another drug for my blood pressure. i now take three, but one is for the swelling that happens in my legs. this past year or so, my blood pressure has been on the rise. he had given me another medication for it, and it worked, but i was allergic to it. so, i had nothing. on my yearly visit acouple months ago, he added a diuretic, which helped about a week, but the pressure hopped right back up there. the edema looks good though. lol. so now i am taking two bp meds and one diuretic. i hope i do not turn up allergic to it, but most of all i hope the bp goes down to normal. it was ok yesterday, but i didnt get a chance to check it today. maybe if i remember before i go to bed.
ok, i need to go to bed now. i really need to start getting there before midnight these days. i will have to start getting up a bit earlier when the weather gets bad. ugh
huggggggggssssssss
tommie
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what is up with this?
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Nov 19, 2008 8:22 pm
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i need to set the scenario here.
one young black girl, about 25, married with a baby. nursing assistant at the hospital. normally bubbly and happy. used to hang on me and call me mom.
me. just an old white lady. nurse at the hospital.
ok, here is why that information was given.
a couple weeks ago, we were both caring for this patient who was dying. his family was there. they are white persons. this young girl looks at the son and father (patient)and says, "boy, you two sure do look alike". now, i have an odd sense of humor i reckon, so i go "well ya know, all us white folks look alike". i laughed, she laughed, family laughed.
later at the desk, i was talking to one of our "susie" rns. we have a tall black rn named "susie" and a short white blonde rn named "susie". white susie was saying, they call me sugar cause i am white. (i do not know why this conversation came up, it just happened) so i say, they need to call you vanilla cause they call the other susie chocolate. (and the black susie will go around saying it also).
just a bit later at different location at the desk, this same discussion comes up with a few different persons, and i just join in and say we should call her vanilla.
i do not think anything of this conversation because it was all just something i joined in on, did not start. and no one seemed offended. but i was sooooooooooooooooooo wrong.
about a week later i was called into the office, and asked if i remembered the incident with the son and father. i of course said yes, and was then informed how it offended the young black girl. i had to be embarrassed and apologized for the incident, that it as not intended to offend the young girl.
and the above discussion was mentioned also. i do not know if the young girl said something about it, or someone else. but i stood up and told her i did not start the conversation, that "susie s" (note, i did not say white susie) started it, and i only added into it.
so now i was told to watch things i say.
months have passed. young girl is cool towards me. only speaks to me when she has to. the atmosphere seemed to be warming up, and i had thought nothing of it.
today......................
young girl has one patient with me. older white man. i have changed his bed, washed his bottom, turned him and covered him. spent extra time trying to make sure things were his way. he says he is ok. i leave the room.
he is on his light less than a minute. i go back. he says to me
"i want the colored nurses". it surprised me. i gasped slightly and said "colored nurses?" and he says yes. i am thinking, he just needs a nurse, so i say, "i am a white nurse" and he said again, i want the colored nurses.
ok, so i am abit surprised, think it is a bit cute and my brain is deciding if i should "chuckle" or be astonished as i am leaving the room, btw. a white housekeeper witnessed this.
the young girl is just one room down, in the hall, and i walk up to her and tell her the patient wants the colored nurses. and she says "he said that?" and i said yes, (the housekeeper is in the hall now) and i said "ask her" and the housekeeper said yes he did say that.
i go to lunch. and i am almost finished when the supervisor tells me to stop in her office.
so i clean up quickly, step in the office, and this young girl is in a seat, leaning forward elbows on her knees, with a tissue n her hand. (does not look to have been crying)
i am asked of the situation, and i say yes, the patient asked for the colored nurses, i did not just say it. and i was told i had said "i am a white nurse, am i not good enough for you?"
now i have to get on the defensive side, and i lean back and say nooooo, i did not say that. i just said i am the white nurse. i tell them i did not mean to offend anyone and i only said what the patient said. i am not a prejudiced person. i grew up in chicago, with black people, hispanics, asian, etc. i have talked this way with them, and it is just the way i was brought up. the young girl stands up, throws her head back and says,
i can't take no more of this and leaves. literally. she went and clocked out and went home.
supervisor tells me how i offended her. i told her i do not understand how it offended her and as i was speaking, i got cut off, and was told she was done with the conversation. i was more or less dismissed.
wtf.
from two comments, i am on the major shpoopit list????
i know that "racial comments" can get you fired. is this what i am looking forward to? if so, when? they do not just fire you. they embarrass your butt. they wait for you to come to work and they escort you out, with security guards. standing over you as you empty your locker, your mailbox and get your coat.
i think this is ridiculous. i have worked at this hospital for near 7 years with people of all colors and ages, and i have used the "we all look alike" comment many a time. discussed differences in color, cultures, whether i would date a black man, listened to a black woman tell me about her white men. (you get the idea) and there was never any problems, until this young girl. now, i have hurt her feelings, and she took it to the supervisor. (she never approached me with it)
i am pi$$ed. worried, and none of that don't help my still down in the dumps mood either.
arrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh
huggggggggssssssss still
tommie
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down in the dumps
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Nov 18, 2008 7:23 pm
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will someone toss me the rope and haul me outta here?
i hate when i feel it coming on, and i know what is gonna happen. just when i think i am doing fantastic, it all of the sudden hits me. i do not know why i get this. i know it is reality catching up with me, scooping it all into a big blob and standing in front of me going "hey! i am here!"
i know what the reality of my life is, and i am handling it, but i reckon due to payday, and bills, and dr visits, and a bad tire, so much of my "poorness" bunched up on me today and now i am feeling down.
i goofed on my budget.
last month, we got the three checks, so i rebudgeted so i could have the extra monies and get my new eyeglasses.
when the insurance bill came, i realized i budgeted it for the wrong paycheck. so i had to do some more finangeling so i could pay it. that put me up to having 85 dollars left after i paid the bills. for the next two weeks.
today i had a doctors visit. i broke down and had my other womanly yearly test done. i have a cyst on my left ovary, and i have had it for years. doctor wants to know when i had my last sonogram. i told him, 5 years ago. he says i need to have another. i say, no, i can't afford it. he says i have to, and i say i have to pay other bills too. he says, you make good money don't you? and i say yeah, i make 19 an hour, but i am a single income. when i was a double income, acquired some things, that my single income does not quite support. and the cost of gas, i have to get to work. he says move closer. i say i have a house. he still says to rent in the city i work. i tell him, i cannot. he says get a room mate. i tell him i live in pana, there are no room mates there. i should have told him to pay for the test and i would get it. we discussed the insurance, which i am gonna have to drop. we discussed the cost of my last labs, which i am still paying on.
why do people who have money not realize that some people have to make sacrifices when they don't have money? my sacrifice will be worse insurance and no medical testing. if i were having symptoms, it would be a different story. i have an occasional twinge or something, but nothing that requires to be looked at.
maybe he could help me by just writing off the 35 dollars that insurance will not pay on his 91 dollar charge for todays visit?
then, i met older daughter in taylorville to eat out. she got some insurance checks in today, so she had extra money. i figured that since i was by the tire place, i would take my "broken" tire and have it fixed. it was too broke, so i needed another tire. i cannot afford another tire, so i asked if they had a used i could use for a spare. my other spare that was now on the van was brand new, so i could leave that there. it was 15 dollars. i had enough for that, barely but i had it. i pulled out my debit card and was giving it to the guy, daughter whips out 15 cash and gives it to the guy telling him to take the cash cause i couldnt afford it myself. (you gotta understand, she loves me and was not really thinking)i said i had enough but she continued to argue that i needed it because i still had to get fuel for the van. instead of causing a ruckus in the tire place, i just took my card back and let her pay.
38 to groceries, 10 to medications, 8 to dinner for tomorrow, 5 for a tip for the meal daughter paid for tonight. i think i have 20 left until next pay day in two weeks. fuel went on the credit card. three trips to work, hopefully other daughter will come through on the 50 she owes me before i run the tank dry.
not looking for pity. just need to get it out. no one to talk to here. cant blog it elsewhere.
depression sucks. i could try st johns wort but i cant afford that, roflmao.
dont worry, i will be ok. it usually passes pretty quickly. i just hate to have to feel it.
hugggggggssssssssssss
tommie
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a thought for the day
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Nov 15, 2008 4:01 am
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God has a sense of humor
don't believe me?
just go to wal mart
and look at the people
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don't hit kids
no, seriously
they have guns now
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handle every stressful situation like a dog
if you can't eat it or hump it
piss on it and walk away!
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we'll be friends until we are old and senile
then we will be new friends 
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a friend will stop you from over reacting
a best friend will walk beside you-giggling
"someone is gonna get it!"
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i did not hit you
i simply hi fived your face
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if you sometimes feel a little useless
offended or depressed
always remember......................
YOU were once the fastest and most victorious
little sperm out of the whole bunch
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have a nice day!!!
hugggggggggssssssss
tommie
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does your name fit?
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Nov 14, 2008 8:37 pm
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my baby sister sent this to me. i would really like to say mine fits, but dont think i have beautiful eyes. and now you know my real name.
huggggssssssssss
A: Easy to fall in love with
B: Amazing kisser
C: really sweet
D: Popular with all types of people
E: will kick your butt
F: Loves people
G: Loves to laugh and smile
H: Super hot
I: Has beautiful eyes
J: Is really sweet
K: crazy
L: Loves to laugh and smile
M: makes dating fun
N: Is someone you can never forget
O: Overwhelming Sexy
P: Is Very Sexual
Q: An animal lover
R: Has one of the greatest personalities ever
S: Makes people laugh
T: Can be funny and dumb at the same time
U: Has a smile to die for
V: Not judgmental
W: Very broad minded
X: Never let people tell you what to do
Y: Loves to Kiss
Z: Loved by everyone
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T: Can be funny and dumb at the same time
O: Overwhelming Sexy
M: makes dating fun
A: Easy to fall in love with
S: Makes people laugh
I: Has beautiful eyes
N: Is someone you can never forget
A: Easy to fall in love with
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hold me please
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Nov 10, 2008 8:33 am
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yesterday and last night i babysat for the oldest daughters two boys. actually, the baby is still here. daughter is sleeping. she works midnights.
is this why i had no more than 4 children? i do not remember having to hold the babies as much as this. maybe i just let them cry?
carter is now 5 months old. he is at the stage where you can make him laugh and he is trying to make new noises every day. and he is.......................
teething
yup. snotty nose, cough, not quite a temp, but his skin is warmer than normal. and the crying.
you can feel the bumps in his gums where his little teeth are growing. but i don't think that is why he is crying. i gave him some tylenol earlier. i think he just wants held.
he normally goes to a day care center, where the proprieter holds him most of the day. she holds all of the babies, and right now he is the baby there.
i am not getting much of anything done, as he wants me to hold him. not play, just hold. he will sit on my lap looking all about, not caring if i talk to him or not. and then, he gets super fussy, and i have to hold him to my chest and rock him to sleep.
he is ok in his walker for a very short while, and in his swing for even a shorter while.
he has big puppy eyes. and when he looks up at you they are so sad looking. and he cries. pick me up nana!!
hold me please.
huggggggsssssssss
tommie
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