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If Something happens to me...
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Jun 13, 2009 1:41 am
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I am just posting this here, for safety.
Considering, last week I break up with Ron.
So far 2 telephone messages, each considerably worse.
On my next day off, I'll recap what had happened for a written reference.
Steph
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It is over!
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Jun 5, 2009 9:38 pm
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And you know what It doesn't bother me anymore.
Ok the last time I wrote here was regarding Ron and I were together, We made the year mark. And It went all down from there.
The straw that broke the camel's back, he called to tell me he was coming over. HE DIDn'T SHOW!!
Only to find out the next day that he wasn't feeling well and that HE DECIDED to go to bed instead of seeing me, now mind you I did not even get a callback regarding that night about any of this.
But he loves me!
Where was RESPECT!!!
And this was the last straw to the man, whom has a cocky atitude that he is better than all....
WTF!!
Was my head up my A@@ for a year?
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A new Chapter ahead!!
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Aug 21, 2008 10:09 pm
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Ron and I are still together, Woo hoo 3 months and going strong.
I know sometimes life does get in the way of what is going on in life, but I made a decision. If we make it together after almost 6 months of being together. I am going to ask him to move in with me...
A big step for me, I know for anyone who has ever read my blogs. I have had some rough times, some times that I thought I may have found the one whom I wanted to spend my life with but only to find out that he or I changed our mind. I know that I love Ron. I am cautious.. I haven't told him nor has he told me,
well... actually has told me in more than one way that he loves me, He speaks Spanish and he changes the word from love to adore.
When the true meaning is love, He doesn't think I know that, but in the job I have an old lady whom tells us that she loves us everyday with exactly the same words that he has told me in that Spanish phrase...
He He!! Got to love that little old lady for helping understand him.
So on this day a new chapter in my life does begin, It is a new day with Ron and I together. I have left the past well alone.
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Life just sometimes gets ahead of us...
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Jul 10, 2008 1:09 am
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I know I left everyone hanging in the last post that I wrote, and I know that I write far and few between here.
But let me say a few things...
Wow!! Life does change drastically at times where you wonder where did it start...
Well since the last time that I have blogged...
Well my stalker is gone, Probably seeing a vehicle in my driveway other than mine has pushed him away... or else he has found someone else to stalk.
Either Way!!! Good riddance, and I am never looking back.
My Mother is doing well, Except last month they had a tornado hit the upper area of Northern NY. The worst damage that she suffered was a down tree in her yard. But to her calling me at work and making me feel like she was hiding something and making me worry, constituted a 4 1/2 hr drive to reach her.
She was upset that I didn't turn around and stay where I was, but drove to see her...
Ok She can't say that I love her, considering...
But I could have muttered to her I was just protecting my inheritance...
(Kidding on that last part)
As for the other part of my life.....
You are not going to believe this, I hardly believe it...
But officially I am a one woman man...
I have been seeing this one guy, (Nope I haven't written about him yet on here)
And how did he get me to commit to him, you may wonder?
Well he is not shoving me to the sidelines like all the others have...
It really was strange the first time we talked on the phone, even though he was working... we talked from about 12 midnight to about 7am.
What can people talk in that time frame of hours... I actually don't remember.. but what ever conversations that he and I have had on the phone has always been in the here and now part, you know the conversations just lead us to anywhere that it takes us...
And we sometimes still continue like that as long as he is not working...and nor am I working..
As for seeing each other well... the first time that I saw him and he stayed over, well.... let me say this, usually when someone stayed overnight, I rarely slept. When he stays over and he wraps his arm around me, I sleep like a baby, just like it is the most naturalistic thing that is suppose to happen.
It also didn't hurt, when he woke up, gave me a bit of a squeeze or a rubbing on my back, or a kiss on my forehead, just to remind me that I am safe in his arms...
Could this be the "one"?
He has told me that he could fall in love with me, Which I may add that this is a first for a man to tell me...
Ohhh, Even better.... He has a toothbrush in my bathroom..definitely a FIRST. As long as I was seeing anyone, no man has ever put another toothbrush in my bathroom.
So as I was saying....
The Last time he stayed over, He told me point blankly...
That he adored me..
Ok, I know the silly me just looked at him and said, "Really, I know"
Don't ask me why I couldn't say it back..
I think it is fear that some one actually wants me for me, and I just am having a tough time hearing the compliments that come.
Now let me say this, I do already know in my heart where I stand with this man.
I can feel the smile that comes across my face just at the thought or of seeing him..
I laugh or smirk when something that he has told me comes to mind when I am alone.
I know I am smitten by him, but at this moment it is a bit difficult to actually say the word "love".
But I know that it is there... But also this is a newly relationship, a bit over a month and a half along, and even though I feel like I've known him for decades... I know that we need to take it slow.
As he tells me, We have a lifetime together.
And as always my famous line is Time does tell...
And this one man could be the last of my soul searching for love and happiness..
So far so good....
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Help needed!
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Mar 27, 2008 10:15 pm
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Tonight,
I came home from work.
Checked my caller ID unit.
Well a number appeared that I thought would be not there.
A telephone number that I believe is the stalker man, whom I have been contending with for almost 2 YEARS!!!!
Yep read that right, no typo here.
But I was appalled, when I tried to get help from the telephone company to help me find out if that was his number.
I was denied, until I produce a police report.
Wait, If I go to the police with info that I think it is him, and I am wrong could I be charged with false report. And accuse someone else wrongly.
I think this set up is totally wrong.
I know the name of the person and I am pretty sure that it is him, But because his tracks are covered on the name on my Caller ID Box. I can't do anything until I prove that it is HIM!!!
I know I could change my number, but who is going to win, unless I get him to stop. Who says that he is not going to get the new number and continue still.
My safety is at jeopardy!! I think a man who continues to contact someone even though they are told to leave me alone, has a screw loose in the head to start. And I must think every step of the way thru, before I rush hastily to any decision.
I am realizing that it is a never ending cycle, and the only way for me to be safe is to run away, which I do not want to do. I don't want to run. But i need to be safe.
I always said that he would not hurt me, but you know what, I could be wrong on that part too.
Any Ideas?
I really need help here.
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With Life, you get cherries or is it Pits?
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Mar 26, 2008 11:01 pm
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Hi,
It has been a bit of a while since I blogged.
Wow! Lot going on,
Hmmmm,
For a lady to be this busy it really makes me wonder..
I would actually classify myself a few bad names if It was me reading this.
But it is me,
And life is really too short for me to stay away from men.
Ok last time that I talked about my life.
I was talking to 3 men or was it 4.
Not sure but right now sort of up to 6 men,
I know I know how do I keep them straight.
Let's recap of some of these men,
John- I actually met for a coffee, even though I didn't have a cup of coffee at the time. He wanted to see me and I drove to him.
Well the honest truth, Regarding John. I may be reading into this but if you are talking to someone, some where along the way eye contact should be maintained. Not talking to the side of someone.
I just don't feel it. And well he still wants to take me out for Dinner next week, But I think I am going to have to decline on the above part.
Hmmm,
Who is next John #2 who is not local but I think a friendship is going to only happen there.
We are still talking, been talking at least every week or 2 since January. I have never talked to him past friendship. I know that friendship is the basis of all relationships but if he is not consistant in writing too often, How can I open up about myself. When we write so little now.
Next, Pete...
Ok this is the man that I wrote that we were going to see each other and have continued to write and see each other, again. Contact via Email has slowed down, we still see each other every other week. No change there. But I think something has changed, Ok I do know something has changed. He can't make up his mind if he wants to be with me in a committal way, And you know what that is why, I have number 4, 5 and 6.
Because he hasn't made up his mind. He knows that I am talking to other men, he really doesn't know how many their are though.
But I am not leading him on, It is just a no strings relationship that I am continuing on with.
So whom would be next,
Chris- is a new one. He is local to me, just over the bridge to my house. He is writing to me, he wants a friendship which I am starting with him, and everyon else, that has gotten to know me.
Chris is a musician and store owner, stable from what I can tell. He is aware that I talk to other men, but not to how many. Which in time I know that I am going to have to divulge. But It is hard to tell,since I feel like it probably is not going to go over too well.
Tony- Knows everything so far, he is not local. But we have talked on the phone quite alot lately, He wants the committed relationship. He actually told me yesterday, That he is gathering that even though I talk to all these men, I am not going to give my heart too easily to anyof them because I have been hurt too much in the past. Yeah to a point he is right. I do give my heart, I fall in "Infatuation" easily, but not in love, I may run if I get scared as I have done in the past.
It is funny that after he talks to me so much about what is going on in my life, that he still wants to be with me. He knows that I met (local John). He knows that I am with Pete, well in the capacity that I want him to know about it.
It actually was really sweet, Yesterday he called me, and asked me to give him some numbers. Of course I thought it was odd, until I realized that he was playing the Lotto, and if we won that he would split it with me.
So lastly, this one, even though I know we will never meet. Or nothing will ever come out of it, this person called Danny has some of the prettiest blue eyes that I have ever seen. And to top it off, He is an ex Chip N Dales dancer. Ok, I know it is the thrill of just meeting one of them.
I am human, I am not playing with emotions here.
It is just too early for the emotional thing with anyone of them.
I actually do a closing of the chapter from the past with myself about a week ago.
Scott emailed me asking me to call him, So he could meet me. I actually stood up to him. Emailed him back with what I have wanted to tell him for a while.
I sent this Email to him,
Hi,
Actually you said something to me that has stuck with me.
Why do I keep going back to men that just want to treat me like crap,
No you didn't do that to me, But you did stand me up that night, and well...
I am over with my past, Could you believe that I saw my exbf that we had talked about and well...
You know I didn't want him.
Actually was glad that he is gone, haven't tried to talk to him via phone nor email. And I think it is the most liberating thing that I have done.
So sorry I don't want to hook up, I hope that you understand and have a great life.
It took me wising up from the comment that you made to make me look for the future for myself.
As for the exbf, Still have not looked back into the past, Although he is realizing that I am not coming back.
He blogged about how... It is easier if I just cut and paste what was written about me..
His own words...
"I was wondering if any of you have noticed this happen to yourself.When your seeking a partner or searching the world for4 a person you might wanna spend time with.Have you ever let your gaurd down seeing it was ttaking you some time.Then when all is said and done you realize that the person you were chasing,trying to catch,wanting to hook up with has disappeared again.Well I know many of you put some time into seeki8ng a partner,but I guess for myself I don't have that much time to put into it.I know I have meant a few nice people and usually keep them around so I have friends on the net.I don't think of it as hooking up,but a lasting friendship.Well one of these times I think I'm gonna change my ways and use it strictly for hooking up.What way have you found yourself's leaning?Thanks for all your input and have a great day!"
3 years of waiting, is what I get from this. Oh was I so stupid.
I am glad that I let go. It was time. It wasn't healthy for me. You know what, I think I got what I wanted. He missed me, and now needs to learn to stand on his own 2 feet with out my support.
Time for me to close the chapter completely.
I can move on, without regrets.
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See I told U
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Mar 26, 2008 10:23 pm
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One small boy and a gal went up to their teacher and asked...
"mam, can we have babies at our age?"
mam replied.."no its not possible"
then the boy looked at the gal and said with a sigh!..
"See I told U..
theres nothing to worry about.....!"
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Northern NY
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Mar 18, 2008 7:33 am
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A curious fellow died one day and found himself waiting in the long line of judgment. As he stood there he noticed that some souls were allowed to march right through the pearly gates into Heaven. Others though, were led over to Satan who threw them into the burning pit.
But every so often, instead of hurling a poor soul into the fire, Satan would toss a soul off to one side into a small pile. After watching Satan do this several times, the fellow's curiosity got the best of him.
So he strolled over and asked Satan what he was doing. "Excuse me, Prince of Darkness," he said. "I'm waiting in line for judgment, but I couldn't help wondering, why are you tossing those people aside instead of flinging them into the Fires of Hell with the others?"
"Ah, those . . ." Satan said with a groan. "They're all from Upstate New York. They're still too cold and wet to burn."
Isn't that the truth?
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A day in Bed
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Mar 15, 2008 2:58 pm
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Last night,
I had to leave work early..
You know that wonderful GI Bug going around.
Apparently someone thought it would be cruel to give it to me..LOL
So between last night and today..
I have been laid up in bed..
Now I know most wouldn't mind a day of bedrest.
But still...
This is not my idea of fun...
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What not to Wear!!
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Mar 14, 2008 10:44 am
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Yesterday while driving to work.
I saw a man outside who was well...
Although he was doing this for his job,
He was wearing the Statue of liberty Hat
And the light turquoise ankle length dress to match.
Ohh, I couldn't have wanted him more.
LOL
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