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A story
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Sep 27, 2009 10:44 am
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of sorts will I tap following the first post--
a few moons ago I was honored to meet two souls who I have come to know as friends--many who know me know that the friend word is not one I just toss out there--acquaintance you bet--never can one have enough acquaintances in this journey --for much is to be learned --shared--within this journey we are all upon--is it not so
though I have not personally walked upon the path they both are embarked upon-I have been given the opportunity of viewing inward to this journey from an outer view--listening and indeed tossing my two cents worth in --perhaps were my two cents are not warranted--tossed out anyway -human nature or human instinct--or both
when anyone hears the word cancer--does it not take the breath out of you --what are the first knee jerk thoughts regarding that word--vile--horrible--as well as a gambit of others--why me--and on and on it goes--for all who hear this word among many other words
personally hearing the words you have cancer--I can only imagine just what does travel through the mind--as well as the mind of those closest to them -from the personal of me--having heard those words not to me --yet regarding family members--it does tend to stun one--bringing about endless thoughts with endless actions following those thoughts--even bringing about a side of people which has one endlessly shaking the head and so much more
choice of treatment comes to mind--does one follow traditional methods of treatment or nontraditional methods--and to what extent of both --we have all known or faced this one in many manners of our walk --perhaps not with cancer--yet in some form or another we all have--bluntly called making a choice--with feedback coming at you in many ways shapes and forms with the choice you do make--everyone has two cents to throw into this as well as two cents to throw in no matter what --we as humans do tend to do this --toss in our two cents worth --
respect and honor come to the forefront here--respecting and honoring the choice made by the person--whether we fully agree or not--for it is a personal choice--is it not--finding us upon a path which might be one never stepped upon--yet firmly upon now- truly not knowing what we are doing--stumbling along the way --and yet is one truly stumbling--might feel like it and yet not truly so --could be in one form out of character for us--and yet is it truly that or is it a part of us we never recognized we possessed all along--
battle comes to mind when one does have cancer--in more ways than one does this word present itself--body doing battle with a matter foreign to us --does tend to take a toll on the body--yet more than the body --the mind--the soul as well --finding one more times than not saying out loud what on any given day would never be uttered--is it to be taken personally--we do tend to take the words of others on more than one level of personal --
this is more thoughts than a story--though the story is unfolding-not only for the two souls I know --for countless other souls throughout the lands--amazing always how this vile horrid critter makes itself known --some people may go a lifetime without ever knowing they in fact have cancer--or others never to be touched by this horrid disease--not that disease in any way shape or form is pleasant--far from it --so far from it --and indeed one can look upon the success rate or survivor ship of cancer--yet not all who have it are found there--in the survivor or success rate of bringing it to bay or nonexistence--which holds true for most all disease does it not--
a journey filled with endless emotions--often times finding one beyond frustrated--angry or just walking away for countless reasons which might not make sense to anyone other than the person --for we are all unique in our make-up of just what is within our abilities to handle or cope with --and what is not--
an added here perhaps should be this --a once relationship which much history is found--both of giving taking--and yet of going separate ways --only to find them where they have always been --a friendship that withstands all presented --granted there are times of dismay times of no more only to return--you know a relationship of two beings--with a foundation so strong it truly does weather all that comes its way--both growing in strength and understanding--along the way -I hope such a friendship exists for all humans--
how many persons do you know who having a relationship with another would indeed stand strong and by the side of one who is battling such a battle--truthfully folks--how many do you know would truly do this --for it is so easy to walk away--oh be there and yet not really be there--might floor ya when you really think about it --do you know within your own relationships if one such person or more than one person does exist--how blessed we are truly --perhaps taking for granted just what we do have--
stepping up to be the rock upon one to lean--to take all the anger the dismay the out of character words that come to be--and yet remain the rock--granted not easy to allow it to wash off the back and not take as personal as we do --yet what a blessing to have a soul such as this within a journey through this walk in life--could you off the top of your head state a name of one you know who would step up for you --might shock ya in ways you never dreamed possible --for it might just not be the person you think it would be without question --we humans are indeed are unique creations--yet does it mean we think less of those who walk away--or do we find within ourselves the knowing they just are not cut out to be who we think they should be--
does this story have an ending--not to present time --for the story continues daily--with two souls there for one another as one battles the horrid cancer within them --have requested many a circles of prayer for them both--for all found within them both--for what wonderful souls are found there--some indeed making one shake the head and stating you can not be serious--yet humans are just that humans --
viewing this from an outer view--many words come to my mind--one speaks loudly for a span of time now --that word ----GRACE---
peace
kel
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Just Sharing
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Sep 27, 2009 9:36 am
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many thoughts all rolled into one--a jumble coming up and out--not certain just what type of sense this truly shall make--just know that tapping is where I am this morning--
during a chat recently a question was presented--that had the marbles floating within the gray matter--not certain I gave a full answer to this --for indeed it is one to ponder upon-
Is our destiny mapped out for us from the time of our creation-
a pondering question which many would have a quick answer to --which leads to many many more questions from this one question --
If our destiny is mapped out for us upon the time of our creation--would we as humans do whatever within our power to alter harm in any form from ever touching us or those we care about--how successful would it be-does not each second --minutes we are upon the earth alter our destiny -to me this is so --just as having a palm read or having a seer read for you --the future is subjective--each movement or thought indeed alters what is to be or what has been presented--called free thought which often times brings about actions--altering what was presented--does it not
if within that question presented one looks upon the time we come to be upon this walk and the time we depart from this walk--would we be the better for knowing--what would we do --would we alter our actions and thoughts--would they be more service orientated or more us orientated--would it be as it was truly meant to be or come to be by us knowing just when we come to be and when we cease to be---would free thought alter that or would free thought ever come to be in this --
many many questions found within that one question --finding one pondering a bit of this and that --by pondering it do we truly change our actions or thoughts--by bringing the pondering into action indeed we do --in which ever venue calls to us in the manner it does call to us--
just one thought among many making the marble float among the gray matter within the mind
peace
kel
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hear tell
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Sep 16, 2009 7:43 am
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Some one has a day of birth upon the horizion--wonder who
-if I recall correctly the end of the week --
hear tell this person relocated not long ago
a new beginning--with an adventure or so in tow
he does pop in with sharings --did take a bit to realize them sneakers were his--
oh the handle should have given one a clue--an inkling perhaps without truly needing a clue--
so to the land of the blogs and all the bloggers found within
venture forth to the land of the old harley lover with wishes for a day filled with love and laughter
as he gets ready to celebrate the day of his birth
happy birthday mark
may it and all days be filled endlessly with love and laughter
peace
kel
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a bit of this a bit of that
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Sep 12, 2009 8:40 pm
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could sum up the happenings of a week or so --
some filled with tugs at the heart--some filled with laughter--
some with wonder--you know a bit of this a bit of that
this week also has found me gazing at times into the area which surrounds me--
morning greetings of the birds --always a wonderful melody for my ears--many are preparing to head to warmer lands for winter--
dragonflies and butterflies--dancing before my eyes--always an awe for the soul of me
wee chipmunks gathering for the cold to come--hurry scurry --a chill is felt in the air--
out of my element so to speak and yet into the element of that which shall be is where I am --
finding out just how rusty some skills are--bringing more into the light--not that it should all be--just nice to know what one can truly master when the mind is set to it --granted the body cries of hello what are you doing--am gonna make you pay for this --yes yes I will
so a bit of this a bit of that---not a bad way to spend a week --
for one never quite knows just what will be presented--ya know
peace
kel
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Thoughts
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Sep 5, 2009 8:46 am
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why am I tapping here when much is calling out that needs to be done--perhaps to put down a thought or so for ever present within the mind --up and out--(must come up with new motto)
this year has been unique --they all are--yet perhaps this year stands out in ways that have my constant attention--even when I really do not want to pay attention--
one of floundering for me personally --hopefully the fish(me) has made it back to the flowing waters--heading along the stream as they were always meant to do --
each day --moment --week--month --year we walk through this journey of life--never quite knowing what we shall encounter
let alone how it will impact or alter us--perhaps that is where my mind is with my thoughts
viewing the many circles of persons within my life a great deal could be tapped--not just of them --myself included-imagine the support one does have--freely given --always--as it should always be
at times we are dumbfounded beyond words what we do encounter as we travel--always within searching for just the right words or actions --to ease a pain--to comfort a being--to enlight--laugh with --or just understand or attempt to understand where the other is coming from - listen always listen -humans we are rather unique creations all our own--must admit within my circles many amazing souls are found--just as circles do seem to grow--
the first post of the day --a message cried out--with hello are you listening--turn up or put in them hearing aids---you requested in a vague manner--let me answer your request with a subtle or not so subtle tappin upon the noggin --will keep it up until it truly sinks in --hello -message read --absorbed--high time to find myself back upon the path of being me--headed towards just what has called to me for many moons--only to be shoved down or out by me--
one might say a sprouting of wings--watching them grow--enabling me to soar where it is that I am to soar--taking me places that will assist me as I do --finding me doing just what it is that I do --with the higher power as my guide how can one not fly --
time for me to fly --wings are sprouting---watching them grow---
does this make sense--who is to say --for you see these are some thoughts however vague or weaving they may be--to me they make sense--and quite frankly is that not how it should be--
peace
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alrighty then
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Sep 5, 2009 8:16 am
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walk the fine line between blatant self-interest and complete altruism---
amazing what the universe answers when one requests
a not so subtle yet subtle knock upon the noggin--a reminder of walk your talk and talk your walk--for me this is so
peace
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Turning of the leaves
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Aug 30, 2009 3:28 pm
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Fall is within the air--leaves are beginning to turn --mother nature once again with her paint brushes turning the mountains around me into masterpieces once again --an awe for the soul always--
equinox around the corner--quiet reflection time for me--a celebration of the quiet side one might say --well for me it will be
peace
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Put to the test
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Aug 22, 2009 8:52 am
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when one hears the word test--many visions of the word test come to mind --my words my test--one in some ways I have failed miserably - ( or have I )-only to find myself in a downward spiral--at a rather rapid rate of decent--oh I hit rock bottom--indeed I did --rather a loud thud when this happened--rocked the ground I walk upon --knocking me flat--only to allow myself in ways to remain just that flat--
A chat I had with a friend made sense and until it truly lit the light it needed to within me--all the sense in the world just was that sense--perhaps I really needed to digest it all --finally I have--knowing it is one day at a time --one foot in front of the other and forward motion is the key--
for years I have placed me on the back-burner --pushing down or swallowing the what do I wants--to put others wants--needs ahead of my own--that was my purpose--well not my soul purpose yet one that had been within my sight my whole sight for more years than not--
when the sight changed--oh I ignored it for a bit --thought it really could not be--truthfully --it is --the sight has changed with me at the forefront the only one within view--and I sucked at it big time--huge--and allowed myself to wallow in you name it I wallowed in it--falling downward and doing nothing within my own personal power to correct it --hence the flat out --
when a comment was made of me running away from myself--my knee jerk response was --heck no --how so--for I see me running to myself--only to hear think what you want --you are running away from yourself--why are you --the strength you have is beyond words and when it comes time for you --just you --it is like a dog with its tail tucked between its legs running away--why--something is scaring the crud out of you --
well imagine that one--the light turned on full wattage--a seeing all that has been came fully into view--the dog is no longer running away with its tail tucked between its legs-
not certain just what all this test has in store for me--yet honestly I am the creator of the test--so come what may --pass or fail --it is I only me --at the forefront --and quite frankly I mean more to me than to allow the downward to keep me down--
so upward I now am --one wee step at a time --firmly placing me upon the path that has called to me for more moons than I can shake a stick at--perhaps giving me a view that will enable me to assist those who find themselves in this place--for it is simple really --we are all humans and sometimes we just need subtle or not so subtle reminders of just how human we are--with circles among circles of people who\\\\\\\'s belief is stronger when ours is not- being just who they are--thanks be for them all --thanks be for the ones yet to be--
fail in one manner and yet truly have I failed--well yes and no-
just know that being put to the test--took a bit of time to find the me who I was running from --do not have all the answers as to why --may never have them--just know one day at a time --one step at a time with an eye or eyes wide open moving upward--slowly and yet it is finally upward--
peace
kel
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Edna
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Aug 15, 2009 5:06 pm
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as in Edna St. Vincent Millay---
when I read these words--many persons indeed came to mind--so I thought I would share them with the world if you will --
Childhood is not from birth to a certain age and at a cetain age
The child is grown, and puts away childish things.
Childhood is the kingdom where noboody dies.
Does say a bit on one level does it not--and yet it goes beyond as well into many other levels--so tell me do you see you in this and if so where so --
let us chat about Edna\\\\\\\'s words shall we---
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Jen-yoo-wan
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Aug 6, 2009 8:35 am
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Genuine--not fake or artifical-----real---true----sincere
A word found within a chat lately that finds me tapping here within the diary of agingone--my thoughts found within the word genuine--granted I personally love the phonetics --gives it a twist all its own--most words if not all words do have a twist to them --granted even words within the made up vocabulary of me--have a few of them --do we not all have them --know that I do -
Where am I going with genuine--time to allow the fingers to tap and the mind to join within the tapping--
within a chat or so as of late the word genuine has come up in many ways--in reference to happenings--people or just events of life--amazing how that word has presented itself --in more ways than one--
so where am I going with this --perhaps a fable -or just some thoughts --with me one never knows what will happen--
we are all genuine in our own ways--makes us who we are-unless we are twins and yet still even then we are genuine--may share a bit of this and that --yet when you get down to it genuine does come through --for we are all unique creatures designed and brought to be from a power higher than ourselves--all the good the bad and the indifferent makes the walk through this life the advenuture of learning --quite a journey we mere mortals are upon truly
am not certain how one would represent themselves in a false manner within this word--granted it happens--am not that naive--none of us truly are--we might find ourselves being niggle--yet truly not as naive as others may think--perhaps what I am saying is within me for me I take people as they are --words are bonds--actions speak at levels we often do not want to hear--yet after a fashion we do hear--
granted a great deal in life has me always wondering as well as shaking my head--for we humans well we are some genuinely unique creatures--from time to time it does tend to cast a wave of doubt upon mankind--perhaps finding one with little or no faith within thier fellow being--sad when this happens--for indeed it does happen more times than one can shake a stick at--wonder if it will ever change --as it needs to for the betterment of us all
when it presents itself--how do we react--let alone act upon what does present itself in the manners it does--perhaps that is what I may never understand clearly --why we humans do to one another what we do --does it truly serve a purpose--for the life of me I will never understand that one--not certain if I really want to fully for what one does not think of am quite certain someone else will
how hard is it to truly be jen-yoo-wan---this wonder or ponder always found within me--
peace
kel
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