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October Oct 7, 2010 9:40 am
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must admit time does seem to get away from me more times than not--some would say it is senility settling in --never claimed to be normal from jump --so if it fits with abnormality so be it ..

the gray matter as always going in more directions than I can keep up with ---which is a good/bad thing I would wager. Yet if it propels one to learn more--to feel more--to more anything then so be it .

Autumn is ever present --crispness within the air --soon jack frost will put on a show for all to see

This last week found me perhaps doing what many would not see as normal for me and yet truly when one is abnormal what is normal -
Memories made--memories revisited --love and laughter leading the way

Spending time with family is always an adventure--what we all have to give one another is truly without measure--thanks be.

This month is a national awareness month --for Cancer--a horrid vial virus which perhaps within this walk in life of mine a cure is found to rid the vial virus from being. One hopes this is so . Just as one hopes this is so for all vial virus, disease as well as afflictions from being .

Life is good --filled with adventures --up to us to embark upon what adventures lie before us ---is it not .

Not certain where I am going with this let alone why I am tapping this --other than it is October and time does seem to be fleeting on one manner or another --

yet taking time to welcome each day ---make the most of what is presented --offering up for those we hold within the many circles of us --spreading some seeds of kindness --pr acting random acts of kindness--what more could one want ---well truly what more could one want ---

many blessings to all who enter here

peace
kel
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rambling rambles Sep 2, 2010 8:44 am
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It has been awhile since I have tapped here---another month was indeed greeted a few days ago --crispness within the air--autumn not far away --

The gray matter with the pings and pongs of the marble that rattles within indeed is either mush or going a mile a minute--

Sometimes it takes true life happenings or should I say witness of true life happenings to make the marble go just a wee bit faster in many directions.

I have said and will continue to say --humans and human nature never a dull study ---and yet is it that we are actually studying--within one format indeed--for each day learning on one level or another takes place--may not always recognize it as such --yet learning none the less.

A great deal has presented itself not only within the personal of me --the everyday of me as well . Can say the kiddos and the wee ones are doing well ----thanks be--growing and blooming always into the persons they are--gives me pause from time to time to pat myself on the back --for some where down the line I actually did something worth while upon the path of parenthood---oh make no mistake many a gray hair has sprouted as well --yet would not trade any of them ---

Within the field I work --sometimes I want to shout out long and loud--and yet would it truly make a difference---other than me shouting out ---humans and human nature---. Persons in all ways come into my life just as the saying goes --for a reason a season --etc. Perhaps that is where I am aiming with this tapping.

One being weighs heavy within my thoughts and within the gray matter. Is it that I am so attempting to grasp understanding of a dynamic of family, or is it the compassion within that finds me so heavy within thought and offering up. Perhaps both .

To wage a battle with a disease with endless support is still a battle heavy and hard. To wage a battle with no support---harder should it be is it meant to be this way . Why ---constantly that question of why presents itself.

Granted this person is truly not alone in a sense,,,and yet alone as well --I guess what I speak of here is blood family ---now granted I will tell you I have a huge family and it grows--the family of man --oh my blood family is not small --though we may not always see eye to eye--I know if one wages a battle support is there ---

Estrangement indeed happens for a number of reasons---some when you get to brass tacks is super sillious---and yet we are speaking of human and human nature---sometimes it is in the best interest of a person to severe bonds--for safety sake--and I am not just speaking physical safety --emotional and mental safety are included---

Each day I find myself offering up for a healing light to blanket this person --for unconditional love to hold them tight -for the warmth of compassion to embrace them like none other--to draw the needed strength from those around them when the going gets tougher --the courage to battle --I could go on and on and yet the point is plain to see---just offer up for this person --

For you see this person is a hoot--my words---it is plain to see--
I am honored she entered my life---for a season a reason --
the sharing flows freely between us ---it is as if I have known her many a year ---and yet perhaps --well no---I have known her many a year---an old soul connecting with my soul---our travels and paths connected when they were meant -sharing learning caring indeed --

no this makes not a great deal of sense if one just reads the words---one has to feel the words---humans and human nature
never a dull study ---
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just sharing Aug 4, 2010 10:25 pm
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do not recall who spoke these words--just know them to be truth filled --sharing them with the land of the blogs

A single sunbeam is enough to drive away many shadows--

peace
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Darth Tater Jul 17, 2010 9:07 pm
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so cute---Darth Tater came to be within my possession this day --

of course a bit of a story comes along with Darth Tater--as well as the many adventures that began this day with Darth Tater

let me go back a bit --this month has been filled with family visits--awes for the soul --love and laughter shared--memories revisited and created

My sister and her daughter came to the mountains---a week after my Uncle and his daughter had come to visit--with my not so graceful flip off a curb leaving me a bit bruised and road rash-ed..

While my sister was here--we attempted to make every moment count--for this coming week she is headed to Saudi Arabia for the next three to five years--my niece is headed to China this coming week to begin her teaching position---

while my sister was here we caught up on the sister chat--comparing grand-babies--I do have her outnumbered---when we were speaking of the wee ones --that is where Darth Tater came into play --my great nephews or one of his favorite things--

what on earth is Darth Tater----never heard of it --explaining and seeing are two different things--Mr Potato Head with a Star Wars twist--now I am not always daft--oh I have my moments--this would be one of them --for the life of me I just could not connect the two --until this afternoon when I opened a package sent to me

Darth Tater---and fun and funny indeed--why we had a ball with it--and though I will share with my grandchildren --Darth Tater indeed stays with me--

I shared Darth Tater today with five or six youngsters at heart--imagine if you will a group of grown-up type persons having endlessly giggles and more fun than a barrel of monkeys--we did
all thanks to my daft moment and the gift of Darth Tater--

Do you recall when Mr Potato head first came to be--no I am not speaking of the plastic one---the original one--do you ????

Darth Tater ---what a great laughter filled way to spend an hour this afternoon----the simple things in life---

peace
kel
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* Jul 3, 2010 9:48 pm
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Happy Independence Day ---

as we gather for BBQ with friends and family--let us not forget those who put their lives on the line daily to preserve and proctect our independence---angels among is--yes--heros--indeed

from my family to your may you gather in love and laughter--celebrating just what independence truly means and those who protect them daily

peace
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mish mash of jibberish Jun 30, 2010 8:00 am
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This month drawing to a close--finding me wondering just where it went, could be a bit of agingsone's age showing. Could be.

Life happening letting itself be known this day , body a bit on the stiff and sore side. One missed step and ouchies to be found.
Time will heal it all. Thanks be it was not worse. A bit embrassed and yet it is what it is .

Watching eagles in flight yesterday afternoon as preparations for a memorial service underway. A sign that indeed one is soaring with the eagles. Am honored to have been a moment or so of a life . Soar high my friend , you watch over many.

The should do/need to do /want to do /and dream to do lists ever present. Some grow in length , others sit in idleness. Amazing how we humans do tend to revee up one aspect and allow another to lie dormat. Human conditioning?

Family gatherings from a far and near taking place.. Thanks be for the love and laughter shared as we gather . Viewing through the minds eye of many moons ago to current date. Sharing caring loving and laughing--what more could one want. Family

Do not travel here to often and yet as I enter each time, I find myself wondering how many are doing--hoping all is well in your neck of the woods...
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Simple Things Jun 15, 2010 10:41 am
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A sharing of a story if you will--true story--indeed--riddled with me thoughts throughout--

Question--do we not all care for our fellow beings in one manner or another--more times than not without giving second thought to what it is that we are doing?

Within the personal path I am upon as well as the what I do for a living --this is found--is it not for you as well.

Never do I discount blessings or angels among us--for what an awe happens with such simple things--simple little things which occur daily. Perhaps our personal radar need be a bit more tuned in.
Do not get me wrong for with simple things no accolades need be presented--more a feeling within present. A way of life--one I attempt to follow each day I travel the path I am upon. One being assisting fellow beings in whatever manner I am capable of doing. Simple little things

now onto the story --within the home I do what it is that I do daily--resides some wonderful souls--brighten not only my day ,each others day as well. I express to many that this home is just one huge family--with members coming to be when they do --lots of love and laughter to go around. Scatter kindness here there and everywhere-

Within this home one person is within my thoughts a bit more than the others, for he needs a bit more assistance as he travels the end path of life. He will be the first one to tell you the first hundred years of life are the hardest. Wisdom indeed. He is a mere 97 years young. A vial disease is giving him a run for his money--the C word. One day may we witness a cure for this just as one was found for so many others.

Now Ray led and leads a wonderful life. Man of tinkering and thought. By trade he was an engineer. Tinker extraordinaire. When he first came to reside with us. he would indeed begin tinkering in the middle of the night--hammer and nails, etc. kept us on our toes if you will.

One of his joys in life was restoring and maintaining a Model A--he would talk hours about his car, his son still has his car, and up until awhile back Ray would call and remind him to keep an eye out when it rained or snowed to keep the car out of the weather.

Ray has his good days and his bad days, and faces each with a smile no matter what. A bright light indeed.

I took it upon myself to give him a tad dah just for Ray. Within the community I reside a gentleman I know owns a Model A as well, a quick phone call, would it be possible for you to come give Ray one last ride within your car. Of course, such a simple thing,when would it be best.

This morning that ride took place. The smile upon Ray's face says it all and then some. Such a simple thing to have a wish happen. After the ride and as of just a few minutes ago the smile remains upon his face. Simple thing reaching beyond mere words.

One being assisting another as we all travel through this walk in life.. Simple and yet why we make it so complex more times than not, words of wisdom come to mind here---the first 100 are the hardest, take time, make time for the simple things in life. For truly is that not what life is about --the simple things?

peace
kel
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a thought Jun 10, 2010 6:24 am
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a part of a song or two songs stuck within the head---in part due to spring/summer plantings within the earth

and yet perhaps the worlds transcend just planting within the earth

gardens --whether it be flowers or veggies--in relation to persons as well --gardens--

oh the words

inch by inch and row by row this is how my garden grows

switch the words a bit
person by person --life by life---this is how a garden grows

hope this finds all well within cyber space

peace
kel
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PSSSSSSSSSSSSSST Jun 2, 2010 10:42 pm
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have a secret to share--well not really a secret---just a venue to put out this message

Upon the morrow ---Dan Dan the driver man celebrates the day of his birth ---drop by and send him a wish or so

Happy day of birth brother man
may it and each and every day be filled endlessly with love and laughter--
shine on --for you are a bright light ---sharing endlessly with many
am honored to call you my brother---a gift to me don't ya know

have a day of wonderful adventures

hugs to all
peace
kel
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Blue Moon May 26, 2010 7:40 am
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They happen---last year found more blue moons than normal--matter of fact a blue moon was found as one year bid farewell and the new began--

Many recall where they were New Years Eve or vague glimmers of New Years-- do we not --think so

New Years Eve found me glancing becoming transfixed if you will in the moon---wintry night--bit on the brr side--and yet the moon had me spellbound for just a span of time ---

In my personal --had been struggling with empty nest syndrome--and truly not knowing how to do just for me--some might harsh lessons presented themselves over and over again..

Who are you --can do for others and yet not for yourself---hmmm--truth filled statement--oh I matter a great deal to me--and indeed work on the person that I am --CHANGE--one word humans -most humans shy away or resist many times over--

That night found me in a jabber with the higher power--am blessed and thankful for many and much--yet what is it about doing for me that finds me resisting like non other--how is it I seem to be in motion and yet not moving a bit---gads---

That night found me turning my face upward with arms raised and open--uttering these words---I SURRENDER---guide me to what and where I am to be--I SURRENDER----

As I laid down this night moonbeams created a halo around my head--upon the morrow a new year to greet---
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